Depression and Anxiety and Leaning On God Through It All
My husband was arrested on April 10 of this year. He was released one month later.
His charge? Manufacturing.
All because he was holding the filler powder for Xanax bars for his now former best friend of almost 20 years. (Granted he grew pot for PERSONAL USE ONLY but that's beside the point...)
I don't really know what the future holds as of right now. Which brings me back to the title of this post.
I was VERY angry at first. But I cooled down and was able to forgive Patrick. He is at fault to a point. But I also know that forgiveness goes a very long way. Next came the depression and anxiety.
Before we moved in together, I was ok if he went out of town for a month or a week or whatever. I could find other things to do without him with me. Granted we talked the whole time, but still.
Once we moved in together, it was much different. Now I'm not too sure what to do without him by my side. After God and Jesus, Patrick is my EVERYTHING!!! I love him dearly. Without him, I'm nearly lost.
When he was arrested, I became depressed and anxious. Never felt those 2 things so hard before. I was lost. Truly lost. I was upset with God.
Once I got my head back on straight, I asked for forgiveness for being angry not only at God and Jesus, but with Patrick. Once I knew I was forgiven, I forgave Patrick. I also told him that to his face...via a phone at the jail he was housed at.
He thought that I had been arrested as well. Bless his heart. I'm forever grateful that I wasn't arrested. I had nothing to do with Tyler's (former BFF) plan of making and trafficking said Xanax bars. That was all Tyler and Henry (other dude doing the making and trafficking).
I've gotten Patrick to open his heart up to God some more. I'm trying to get him more into church. Doesn't matter WHAT church. Any church will do. I want a pastor/preacher/priest that teaches from the Bible itself.
So, if you read my blog, please pray for my husband to continue down his path of the straight and narrow. And pray for me that my anxiety and depression stays in check for Patrick. Patrick is also suffering from depression and anxiety as well. Feels like his life is a mess.
This is all just one ugly storm and we all must weather it together and depend on Christ to help us through.
Please pray!!!
His charge? Manufacturing.
All because he was holding the filler powder for Xanax bars for his now former best friend of almost 20 years. (Granted he grew pot for PERSONAL USE ONLY but that's beside the point...)
I don't really know what the future holds as of right now. Which brings me back to the title of this post.
I was VERY angry at first. But I cooled down and was able to forgive Patrick. He is at fault to a point. But I also know that forgiveness goes a very long way. Next came the depression and anxiety.
Before we moved in together, I was ok if he went out of town for a month or a week or whatever. I could find other things to do without him with me. Granted we talked the whole time, but still.
Once we moved in together, it was much different. Now I'm not too sure what to do without him by my side. After God and Jesus, Patrick is my EVERYTHING!!! I love him dearly. Without him, I'm nearly lost.
When he was arrested, I became depressed and anxious. Never felt those 2 things so hard before. I was lost. Truly lost. I was upset with God.
Once I got my head back on straight, I asked for forgiveness for being angry not only at God and Jesus, but with Patrick. Once I knew I was forgiven, I forgave Patrick. I also told him that to his face...via a phone at the jail he was housed at.
He thought that I had been arrested as well. Bless his heart. I'm forever grateful that I wasn't arrested. I had nothing to do with Tyler's (former BFF) plan of making and trafficking said Xanax bars. That was all Tyler and Henry (other dude doing the making and trafficking).
I've gotten Patrick to open his heart up to God some more. I'm trying to get him more into church. Doesn't matter WHAT church. Any church will do. I want a pastor/preacher/priest that teaches from the Bible itself.
So, if you read my blog, please pray for my husband to continue down his path of the straight and narrow. And pray for me that my anxiety and depression stays in check for Patrick. Patrick is also suffering from depression and anxiety as well. Feels like his life is a mess.
This is all just one ugly storm and we all must weather it together and depend on Christ to help us through.
Please pray!!!
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